Almost two years ago, I felt God pulling me closer to Him.

Letting go and letting God has been such a struggle for me in my walk of faith. I’ve always been a “in control” kind of person the type who thinks, “If it’s going to get done right, I probably need to do it myself.” I believe in God. I truly do trust that everything is in His control. But even with that belief, I still find myself asking… why is it so hard to fully give it all to Him?

There’s something honest about admitting you don’t have it all figured out and if I’m being real with you, that’s exactly where I am.

A few months ago, I came across a post from a local girl I had heard of but didn’t know personally. Her post was about being at home with her two kiddos, making Aldi runs on a random Tuesday morning, and how that was the ultimate life — the goal. Not the corporate 9–5, but building her own empire alongside her family, on her own terms.

There was a time when I would open my Bible, read a chapter… and close it feeling more confused than encouraged. Honestly it still happens more than I would like to admit but I’m okay with that because it has forced me to be more intentional with my studies, I research, read and study the word more intensely until I understand fully